As I’m writing this I realize it was exactly two years ago that my job prepared us all to be working remote because the world was shutting. Little did we know it would be two years before things started to return to “normal”, well at least our new normal. If you’re like me 2020 was the most trying to your mental stability. I was the biggest control freak so to tell me that my day to day would be unknown and hectic, you can only imagine my anxiety.
Around February of 2020 I had decided to go full force when it came to my content creator and influencer journey, to really get into shape before summer and even try to buy a house. God really laughed at me with those lol. It took about 6 months before I could used to the new routine forced upon me by a deadly pandemic but once I got a handle on it, my life changed dramatically.
Fast forward to January 2021 we were able to go outside and socialize again and I was ready to do the things I had set to do the year prior. The difference this time was that I needed to change my mental and emotional well being. I had never been so determined to change but didn’t want to feel overwhelmed either. So here came the research. I started watching more and more YouTube videos on shadow work, manifestation and any type of inspiration I could find. even after all the research and gurus I’d come across I still knew I had to make it my own. The way I knew it would be able to stick with me.
The first things I didn’t was decide what the main traits I had that I wanted fixed. I was tired of having so many anxious thoughts and being scared to try things or scared to take leaps of faith so that’s where I started. How could I become less anxious and less afraid of things? When I say afraid I don’t mean scared of spiders or the dark lol. I was afraid of failing. Afraid of giving it my all and it failing miserably in my face. I felt like if that happened I would die. Yes I was very dramatic lol.
Knowing these two top things that I felt hindered me from living the life I truly desired, I decided to focus on those. If other things came to mind I would focus on those later, for now it was anxiety and fear. So where did I start? Anxiety. How could I be less anxious? Obviously learning to release control and worry of things. I started to pray more and more. sometimes all throughout the day anytime I felt anxious about something. I’d pray asking God to take over and help me let go. This habit of praying and other steps started to really work after being consistent and disciplined.
Next was fear. The opposite of fear to me was having faith and trusting God that everything was working out for my higher good. I would start taking small steps of faith each day until it got to the point that I had fully let go and let God. I felt on top of the world.
Now if you’re anything like me you’re always looking to enhance yourself and instead of only focusing on the physical, you have to know that the real inner work comes from within. No more hiding from emotions or trauma. It’s time to tackle them head on!
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